Tuesday, June 24, 2008

The Real Hiatus

I've always appreciated all of the support more than words can say, but for the time being, a true hiatus is necessary. A drunk post here and there leads everyone to think that I/We are fucked for life and that's not my AIM.

Sure, everything is bizarre and weird and we're (some of us) trying to find the math in it all, but the truth is that too damn many people know who I am and what's going on, and I'm not comfortable sharing anything anymore. Rather than build a wall around myself, I'll find a new outlet, and as guaranteed, I'll be good as gold, but you can bet sure as shit that I'm pouring garbage out SOMEWHERE. All I ask is that there are no worries from the faithful ones, and that you have enough faith to trust that I'll be fine, although angry and confused for a bit, but I'll find my own way and all will be fine.

The blog's been greater than Awesome, but I'm camwhoring without the cam at this point, and I can't appreciate that. I'm not anonymous and I'm not no one anymore. Now that I'm home, it doesn't matter at all. This post itself has been narcissistic enough.

Thanks a billion, going under the radar til I have ALL my shit together, a-thankya-vary-much!

-Mel Brooks


Sisu said...

I'm going to miss you, but it's time to take care of you.

BigD said...

Was it something I said? Say it ain't so...I will now hold my breath until you change your mind! Ok...well maybe just until I turn blue and pass out.

Do I get to be a "faithful one?"
If so, I hope you know that you
are asking a lot of this card-carrying member of "Worrier's Anonymous" - but, as I just commented on your prior post, I do have faith in you!

I will really miss YOU a lot!!!!
God(s) bless you Ryan, you will always have a special place in my heart.

P.S. - How long will it take you to get ALL your shit together??

Promise to come back when you do?

Anonymous said...

No worries. Abundant faith and trust.

BBP said...

Thanks for all of it .... it helps!

Anonymous said...

Oh well, at least we still got Big Tobacco.

Good luck, bro.

Dan T said...

good luck i hope you do well. Maybe you should tie your blogs together in a book? I think it'd sell well, even though i'd have already read most of your book ;).

Anonymous said...

I have been reading your blog for about 6 mo now. You have given a lot to me without knowing it. I hope that when vets come through my classes, I can be a little better at supporting them rather than being a clueless idiot. (I hope to move up to clued-in idiot.)

Your writing is absolutely riveting. If doing it helps you, I hope you still find an outlet. Meanwhile, maybe some of the new pink skin needs a little time away from public scrutiny to heal a little further.

Anonymous said...

A time to be silent, and a time to speak.
A time to love, and a time to hate;
a time of war, and a time of peace.

Enjoy your time of peace, and thank you for sharing yourself with us. Best of everything Ryan, you have great things to offer in college & life.

LL said...

Be cool.

Anonymous said...

Well, shit. We're gonna miss you. Now, to fill this huge void, what will I do????

God Speed.

Ky Woman said...

Hey, YOU need to take care of you.

But give us a shout if you need us!

membrain said...

I was thinking myself that too many people know who you are.

It's been an amazing ride, Suspect; one that is unparalelled in my experience. I've learned a lot from you.

I'm glad you get a month at home away from garrison bullshit.

Adios Amego!

LT Nixon said...

Argh! Another one bites the dust. Well, I've enjoyed reading all your posts while it lasted. Hope it all works out for you. Shoot me an email if you want to hang out sometime or you need anything.

Jean said...

Live your life the way you deserve... fully and with joy.

Hope we hear from you again, somehow.

Anonymous said...

You and others that write have given the rest of us a chance to partially understand where you have been, more than in any other conflict. Every word that has been lighted on the screen is a voice of a live person involved in something impossible to understand. You have certainly done your share. It has been wonderful to have access to this blog! No, it hasn't seemed narcissistic. It seems sincere.
I think we readers/responders must have helped you, too. There's not much else we can do. It was difficult for me to read what you had to say, because I was afraid an intelligent, articulate, funny and likeable young person was going to get greased in a conflict that outrages me by its' existence.
In the same sense that we needed you to write about Iraq; we will need you to churn out your charming insights in some form, because it's obvious that you have a lot to say. (I am personally on the edge of my chair for the moment you experience a mid-life crisis.) Maybe you won't write; perhaps you will use another medium. I think you will find an audience anyway. Please don't bother to wait until you have your shit together, that's a Platonic ideal and it's unsupportable in nature...
Uh, should I be the one to break the word to you that your blog is the most profoundly anti-war action you could have taken? Sorry...it's true. From my stance, none of the sweat, shit smells and stress you experienced were in vain. It wasn't a fail. Every word you wrote made the reader more aware of the war. When enough people are aware, it will stop.
I'm really glad you made it out of there. I'm sorry about the others didn't. All I can do is react to a situation I can't control.

Anonymous said...

Hasta la vista suspect. I wish you all the luck in the world and I hope to come across your writing again someday.
take care!

Anonymous said...

Amen, godspeed and peace out :) Wolfgirl

Anonymous said...

Take care

Anonymous said...

Short timeer, today has sucked, first LT G and now you?! but you have done your duty and earned your peace...
So from the Outer Hebrides... Oh Celtice one, because I think you need it
"The grace of God be with you,
The grace of Christ be with you,
The grace of Spirit be with you
And with your children,
For an hour, for ever, for eternity."

Hardtack said...

Mercy, both you and Kabooom. But, you need to do what is important, and thanks for taking the time to keep the rest of us informed.

I will miss your posts, and has been said, it is time to take care of yourself. When the time is right, you will be back.

Stay Frosty, Stay safe. You will be in our prayers.

Rhiannon said...

Hey Tiger

I'm glad you made it back home in one piece, and I will miss reading about what you're up to.

Please look after yourself, ok? I don't know how well your vets get taken care of over there on the other side of the world, but I really do hope that you get the respect that you deserve for doing a painful job in shitty circumstances.

Take good care.

June said...

Thanks for everything. You have a knack for this. Please, don't ever delete your blog.

Take care of yourself.

Gus said...

Thank you for your insight man, good luck in life. Take care!

Red said...

*sigh* Late as usual.

I'm gonna miss your writing, your perspective, and your story. I've seen at least one suggestion that you publish these, and I think it's a damned good idea. I'd wait a couple of years, but it's a good idea. I'm not going to bother to second all of the "God bless"es, "best wishes", and et cetera, because you already know that I mean those. So get out there, have fun, and do something you want to do. End of this chapter. Enjoy the next one.

Anonymous said...

In a couple months it will be no thang..

Just the latest off the line.

Go buy a bunch of polo shirts and whatever. Change the outside and change the inside.

We had to leave the Kbar and web boots in the jungle.


vietnam vet

themorethingschange... said...

It's not for us to say what's best for you, that's your call.

But gotta admit my heart sank when I came back to the computer after an unavoidable absence. I was SO looking forward to catching up with you.

But here's the thing; we all need space from time to time. Your readers know you've earned the right -- it's just that you've shared yourself with us for a couple of years now and, well, we've gotten attached.

You know what they say about love, it's not selfish. So we'll wish you well, bite the bullet, and look forward to reading your posts again someday.

And Dude, college was a ton of fun! Suck up all the dosh Uncle Sam will part with and Rock on!


themorethingschange,,, said...

PS: do we ever get All our shit together?