Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Not Short Enough

First and foremost, our old pal GI Kate was interviewed for a project tentatively called "Women Of The Military". She'll tell you how it is, so check it out. http://myamericaniraqlife.blogspot.com/2008/06/women-of-militarytrailer.html

Alarm goes off at six in the morning but you've been in and out of consciousness for the past half hour. Like your body just knows that it has to be up soon. It's ingrained into you, that fear of being late or not being in the right place at the right time.

Morning PT. Completely unmotivated and indifferent, just going along to get along. You don't even bother to count days or even months. Its starting to look like The Purgatorium just shifted gears. Monotorium. Nauseum. Minimum security prison. You can't even act like the whiny bitch that you want to, cuz "they" will crush your balls. Go along. Get along. Pray you don't get hit with the Stop-Loss. Crawl towards your ETS date. Shrug shit off. Groan and sigh and look at your watch.

Don't fuck up.

Just wait it out and be that upstanding soldier that you're supposed to be. The game plan for now? Eh, I'll just keep the ol' mouth shut and do a whole lot more of the going along and see how well it gets me along. As mush as I'd love to completely let go and let the bird fly and sound off with a fuck-off, it just isn't worth it. The Army can fuck your world up and it/they will if you cross them/it.

Hey, you're just serving the last year of your sentence. Your crime? Enlistment.

So be it, may the paychecks flow. Gimme that money, then gimme that GI Bill, you know, the new and improved super beefy one. Yeah, I want that. I need it. Earned it. Fork it the fuck over, Unc Sam. Gimme what you promised and don't you dare fucking start spouting off with some tiny print bullshit.

Gimme what's mine and I'll go quietly.


membrain said...

Dude. Don't even SAY Stop-Loss. And yes they can fuck you up. They fucked up SFC Toby Nunn's career for participating in the documentary Bad Voodoo's War.

And he was professional Soldier.

All the best.

Jenni said...

don't worry about how much longer you have left in the army...just think how many days you have left until you come home for a month...

8 days!!!!!


Anonymous said...

doubting that you'd go quietly, suspect!

BigD said...

I am glad to hear that you will be heading home in eight days...it sounds like you need a change of scenery and some time away from Uncle Sam and all his shitty relatives. Think of this time as your "corner", get that cut over your eye closed, drink some water and catch your breath, listen to the good advice of family and friends, and then get your butt back in there and finish what you started!

It is a mind game now (I guess it always was)and you must remain a fierce competitor. LIFE is too f*ckin' precious to waste time on trivial crap and fol-der-all! I have every confidence that your talent and your goodness will prevail. Your voice already speaks loud and clear to this crazy f*cked up world. No need to go quietly. Life is worth the fight.

"I still find each day too short for all the thoughts I want to think, all the walks I want to take, all the books I want to read and all the friends I want to see." ~John Burroughs

"I held a moment in my hand, brilliant as a star, fragile as a flower, a tiny sliver of one hour. I dripped it carelessly, Ah! I didn't know, I held opportunity." ~Hazel Lee

God(s) bless you Specialist Ryan, you rock my socks.